whisper me (this);

"So it's you, all this while?"

silly, silly line.

never the love.
always the friend.

never the forefront.
always the background.

never the shining sun.
always the candle.

until of course comes the slap.
lucky you if it's not too late.
silly you for believing it's never too late.
because life is a river.
not a movie; you don't get to pause and rewind.

*

she walks up the hill in that flowy dress she used to wear.
towards the clearing where always, the breeze would be cool,
always playing gently with her hair, always brushing softly against her skin.

in the place where the sun rays would barely touch her skin, never burning.
where the birds would sing in harmony,
and the clouds would always put on a show against the blue skies.

in that place that is secretly hers.

how she wishes to be heard;

never again a stepping stone
(stepped on leading to something better)
always wanting to be the better one

never again a lesson with a fullstop
(a lesson to correct the future)
always wanting to be a lesson to correct the present

never again a gypsy who dances to please
(a one time pleasure, never for forever)
always wanting to be forever

never again. never ever another fallen leaf.
(forgotten; never remembered)

never again. never ever broken.
(always in pieces; never in whole)

never again a chapter,
for always; this. is. a. story.


so in this place that is hers.
she smiles.
throwing away the nevers.
basking in the always.



"ini; atas kamu - untuk kamu." bisik sang angin.


forevermore.